Wednesday, February 25, 2009

So strange is this feeling

I don't know what's wrong with me...I've been feeling so blue lately.

I want to say it might be seasonal...but winter is slowly coming to an end. What can I blame this on? I'm just feeling so burnt out...

I know, on the exterior, it looks like everything ok. I still smile when someone speaks to me. I still study and do my normal academic activities. I still eat and drink the same. I don't know, it's just so weird. I have such an "empty" feeling in the pit of my stomach, a knot in the back of my throat. I'm getting kinda worried. Sometimes, I get this inexplicable, indescribable feeling...but somehow, it always washes over me more hotter and more intolerable than ever.

I cried yesterday...it felt so good to just let it all out. I still have a lot of tears left in me, but I have to be strong. For God's sakes, it's not like I'm a little elementary school girl anymore! I gotta suck it up, right? Big girls don't cry!

I'm vacillating in between these two emotions and perspectives. On the one hand, I feel so bleak at my lowest point. ON the other hand, I look up and I see the sun will come out tomorrow (literally and figuratively, lol). I just have to have faith. Even when I was close to defeat, I still rose to my feet. Can't stop trying...as somber as the gray clouds that hang over me...indubitably, I must keep on treading through.

If you're going through hell....keeep on going. :)


Thursday, February 19, 2009




Hmm...so this thing is kind of weird. I remember back in high school, Xanga was so popular. I guess this is "what's up" these days. Lol, anyway...so much is going on right now! I just want to the world to stop for one second...like you know in those movies when the whole world stops but the person is still moving? Well, yeah, I wish for an experience like that.

But too bad, the real world doesn't work like that. Ohh which brings me to the next thing!! Haha, is this crazy or what?? So basically, I have this one guy friend...let's just call him "Bob". Well, Bob and I kind of struck up a deal today. Basically, it's saying that by the time we're both 25...if we're still both single then we should hook up. WHICH IS CRAZY! Why would this issue even be brought, especially considering both of us are very much attached with someone else right now?

I don't get it, either, hahaha. Oh well...something funny to look to, I guess.

So here are some belated pictures of the office party we had a few months back. Those times were so fun...too bad, things change sometimes. Ugh, I hate reality. Can't I just sleep in my world of fantasy...at least in dreams, even if something goes wrong...at least I can just wake up!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Hey, I'm new to this thing! I have no freakin' idea how to work this...hahaha. Bear with me!! :)