I want to say it might be seasonal...but winter is slowly coming to an end. What can I blame this on? I'm just feeling so burnt out...
I know, on the exterior, it looks like everything ok. I still smile when someone speaks to me. I still study and do my normal academic activities. I still eat and drink the same. I don't know, it's just so weird. I have such an "empty" feeling in the pit of my stomach, a knot in the back of my throat. I'm getting kinda worried. Sometimes, I get this inexplicable, indescribable feeling...but somehow, it always washes over me more hotter and more intolerable than ever.
I cried yesterday...it felt so good to just let it all out. I still have a lot of tears left in me, but I have to be strong. For God's sakes, it's not like I'm a little elementary school girl anymore! I gotta suck it up, right? Big girls don't cry!
I'm vacillating in between these two emotions and perspectives. On the one hand, I feel so bleak at my lowest point. ON the other hand, I look up and I see the sun will come out tomorrow (literally and figuratively, lol). I just have to have faith. Even when I was close to defeat, I still rose to my feet. Can't stop trying...as somber as the gray clouds that hang over me...indubitably, I must keep on treading through.
If you're going through hell....keeep on going. :)